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McCourt: “I Was TEACHING, That’s What Took So Long!”

This review appeared in the Books section of “Canada’s National Newspaper”, the Globe and Mail, on December 24, 2005. Thanks, Martin.

“Listen. Are you listening?…Every moment of your life, you’re writing… A simple stroll in the hallway calls for paragraphs, sentences in your head, decisions galore….The cool character, the charmer, doesn’t have to prepare much of a script. The rest of us are writing…”

For decades, it occurred mainly in the margins of student papers and in classroom dialogues, but now we all know what Frank McCourt was writing. Angela’s Ashes made him, as he derisively puts it, “the mick of the moment”, and this overnight success required only a miserable Irish childhood, then 50 years to come to terms with it. Those ensuing adult decades in the United States (“Isn’t this a great country altogether?”) were recounted in ‘Tis, but “after it was published I had the nagging feeling I’d given teaching short shrift”.

Now 75 years old, McCourt has redeemed that failing with Teacher Man, a superbly digressive stroll down the aisles of his teaching career in New York City. The mix of lamentation, wit and dogged observation will be familiar and welcome to those who enjoyed his earlier memoirs. This is a smaller canvas, but a richly remembered one.

To feel he had neglected teaching must have been a bitter irony for McCourt. In a pointed and often sarcastic prologue, he spins the ultimate fairy tale: teachers bathed in support and admiration by their communities, teachers lovingly heeded by government, teachers on television (“Imagine!”). He fantasizes about hollow-lived Hollywood actresses tearfully offering to trade their empty fame for the life of a teacher. HA!

In the same introduction, though, he paints the real picture. He lists the professionals that are admired and tangibly rewarded by North Americans: doctors, politicians and entertainers but “not teachers. Teaching is the downstairs maid of professions.” He compares the anonymity, even the outright humiliation, of his three decades in education with his unexpected status as a best-selling author, “a geriatric novelty with an Irish accent” whose opinions on nearly everything, suddenly, were eagerly sought. McCourt now wants all of us to hear this: Teaching is important. Teaching is hard. Teaching is heartbreaking, especially when it is done well. And teaching is how he learned to understand life well enough to write about it.

As a man who spent years in high school hallways, I loved the vindication of the profession that is so flamingly argued in the prologue.  I was moved to recognition, wry chuckles and the occasional fierce tear by Teacher Man. Chalk-stained wretches will find it a mirror, and not always a flattering one. More importantly, it is a window on the classroom for those who have forgotten what school (and what they) were like, or who ignore schools studiously until it’s time to lay blame for the Social Ill of the Week. Its passionate insights deserve a wide and thoughtful reading.

So how does McCourt show us high school life? No surprise here: he tells stories. The tales of childhood woe and immigrant struggle in his first two books were honed in front of skeptical audiences of teens. In Teacher Man, he occasionally strays from his classroom into accounts of this love affair, that strange roommate or loyal friend. I felt like a student trying to avoid a grammar lesson: Come on, sir, can we get back to those teaching stories? The classroom tales are dramatic, funny and poignant, the best of the book.

“Here they come. And I’m not ready.” McCourt remembers the wait for his first class at McKee Vocational and Technical High School, the same feeling I had every September for 20 years. The first part of the book, “It’s a Long Road to Pedagogy”, tells of his painful apprenticeship, bringing literary appreciation and writing skill to “the future mechanics and craftsmen of America”. “Yo, teacher man!” calls out Joey the Mouth, moments after an eccentric response to a flying baloney sandwich gives McCourt the first small victory of his career. “So, you Scotch or somethin’?” And the stories begin: the ones he tells his students, and the ones they live out with him.

Like all good teachers, he is haunted by his failures. Augie is beaten by his father in front of his classmates. Kevin the Lost Boy ends up utterly lost in Vietnam. Pedagogical truisms on the “posture and placement”, the “identity and image” of the good teacher are useless (or worse) to McCourt. He is accused, by Paulie’s mother at his first Open School conference and by his own relentlessly guilty conscience, of being “a fraud, a goddam fraud. Stories, stories, stories!”

Yet from baloney sandwich intuition to an epiphany on the literary value of forged excuse notes, McCourt is persistent and often inspired in opposing conventionality. He begins to turn the corner on his career. He feels, though, like “A Donkey on a Thistle” as this second part of Teacher Man tells of fitful ambitions and insecurities that keep him stumbling through various outposts of academe.

13 years into his career, seeing himself as “a failed everything…adrift in the American dream”, McCourt begins “Coming Alive in Room 205”, the title of the book’s final section. His only daughter Maggie has just been born, and he finds himself at Stuyvesant High School, “the jewel in the crown of the New York educational system”. Suddenly he is teaching ambitious and talented (if complacent) students in a school that values his unorthodox approach. “I began to feel at home in the world,” McCourt writes. His Creative Writing classroom overflows. “Why don’t they just let him teach in Yankee Stadium?”a colleague wonders.

We read of musical recitations from recipe books. We learn why “Little Bo Peep” might be McCourt’s favourite poem. We listen to him interrogating students about the previous night’s dinner, with startling results. We meet Jonathan the eternal cynic, Serena the gang leader with a heart of gold, and Bob, the Jewish Future Farmer of America. And in a way that we haven’t quite done before, we meet Frank McCourt: “wandering late bloomer, floundering old fart discovering in my forties [and fifties] what my students knew in their teens.”

His internal dialogues are biting, and his comments on education caustic and informed (if slightly repetitive). But his superb ear for the classroom experience is the centre of Teacher Man. We owe a debt to the unnamed student who called out, as the teacher walked away from the last class of his career, “Hey, Mr. McCourt, you should write a book!” I’m certainly grateful for his third one.

A Night With the Raptors

I’ve made the big trip to The Big Smoke, seen lots of fine things and met some great and interesting people. The Raptors game was a mistake, though. Watching the Raps/Bulls from the upper deck of the ACC (Air Canada Centre, not the Atlantic Coast Conference, for anyone out there in the Bozone who might care about the difference) was an isolating and disappointing experience. Don was (W)right: it is better to watch it on TV.

It’s been years and years since I’ve seen a game live. The sideshows at an NBA game, even one as undistinguished as this one, are sociologically interesting; annoying to an Actual Hoops Guy like me, but still fascinating in an I’m-only-here-for-tonight way. The Dance Pak tries so hard, and I wonder where they think they’re headed, what they think they’re auditioning for: musical theatre? the arm of a well-paid athlete? Or are they just keeping fit and funding their medical education? All that hair-flinging must be a chiropractor’s nightmare. (Hey, look, what else was I going to look at during timeouts?) The music pounds, would-be VJs ask inane questions, scoreboards give me noise-making advice (with helpful video handclapping graphics), and at regular intervals a ballgame breaks out.

It’s been so long since I’ve been at a game that I thought I might be able to get down close to the floor during warm-ups, maybe even get in a quick word with Jay Triano, the only Canadian coach in the NBA. I’ve followed his career since he was The Big Stuff of a high school tryout camp where I was the short plucky unknown. There’s this idea I have, but I’ll have to find another way to pitch it. The security is pretty tight, Artest knows why …

The MapleRaps lost, by the way. Their unfortunate draft pick, Senor Araujo, still starts but is utterly free of confidence when the ball is in his hands. (I was in the upper deck, but the fear was obvious.) They don’t defend very convincingly, even the fine young star, Chris Bosh. And here’s a thing: I watched for Mr. Triano to speak with players, during timeouts or while on the bench. Didn’t see it. Don’t quite get it. What do assistants do during games, other than charting? I sure hope he’s not a lameduck Canuck, the token local who wouldn’t have an NBA job in any other city. I think he was stiffed from the National Team headship, and the jury is going to be out for a long time on Leo Rautins in his, apparently, first coaching job at any level. It’s amazing to watch the ins and outs of elite basketball in a hockey-mad country, even when not many of us do.

Stalking the Editors

The pilgrimage to Toronto — holy of holies for lit-wits Canadian — continued today, with much to love and great good luck. Martin Levin, Books editor at The Globe and Mail, had agreed to meet the Writer Who Came in From the Cold (of Ottawa), and to the surprise of both of us, I walked out with Teacher Man by Frank McCourt and a review deadline for next week. Yippeeee!! Right up my street. The Walrus magazine wasn’t far away, and its editor hadn’t gotten my emails, but I still got an hour in a coffee shop with Ken Alexander, another former teacher and avid basketball coach (it just took him less than 20 years to escape). Hi, Ken! What he’s doing is a nervy thing, and I admire it. Good mag, too. I want to be on its list of writers, a good list and getting better.

Love is All Around. No Need to Waste It.

Sitting in a little Chinese restaurant on Dundas, it occurred to me that I actually like Toronto. This small-town boy, in his mid-20s, escaped a year living in TO with loathing and resentment. I hated the place. I got a knot in my gut for years afterward just approaching the skyline via 403 or the QEW. I’d worked in retail (ugh!) at the heart of the garish Yonge Street strip (vulgar, garish, soulless, unkind, uname it…).

And now every time I come here I’m tingling. I want to come again. (New York City shocked me in ’02 by being loveable, Rucker Park right through to the Staten Island ferry, Manhattan to Yankee Stadium.) Queen West, Spadina, Nathan Phillips square. Arty shops, that incredible subway system that gets you all over the map quickly, shows at Hugh’s Room, and all kinds of people. I wasn’t ready for the people back then. My circle was small. My town was small. My town was white. (Six Nations Reserve was next door but it was another country.) I must’ve felt pretty substantial there, and I felt invisible in the big city. I must have hated the anonymity in Toronto – nobody knew my name, either, Mr. Baldwin, not that I’m comparing my comfortable little existential adjustments to your experience – but also the noise and the indomitability of it. It scared me. Maybe that was it.

But today, I wanted to do the Mary-Richards-in-Minneapolis thing, spin on my heels and toss my fluffy hat in the air. Just one fluffy hat short. If I can make it here. And all that. Hey, anybody want to read some stuff? English not good? No English? That’s okay! Here, take a look at what I wrote, you’re gonna love it…

Just Say NO to Reading

Readers are Leaders was one of the main mantras of my teaching career, and no doubt it also soothed me regarding the undeniable Rightness of my constant hunger for text. But one of my annoying little assignments along The Artist’s Way this week has been reading deprivation. In a life like mine, that’s not such a small thing, actually, and though it has been easy to slip into that mindless groping for typeface, I’ve been surprised by how much I like it. It’s a relief. It makes me realize (again) that reading is not some lazy-boy dodge for me but a ravenous, indiscriminate and chronically unsatisfiable quest. I highly recommend it to the reading-addicted.

“Readers are leaders!” I harangued my classes, but “put the book down and go DO something!” has been a regular jab at my hyper-literate sons and even, now, their book-snaky Dad. “They say that life is the thing, but I prefer reading!” That has long been one of my favourite quotes (I forget who wrote it), but it’s not quite so funny anymore. It’s been good to find new ways to live in the evening, and it wasn’t all Adventures in More Timely Housework (though I even enjoyed some of those). I finally repaired those loveseat cushions. You might say it was only packing tape, but it was Industrial Design to me!

I Have Friend (Possibly Even Plural)

You may not have a Deirdre in your life, but if you ever have the chance, get one. Through no fault of my own, I did and I’m a grateful writer dude. I have My Own Private Deirdre and she’s great, even if I have to share her with everyone she’s ever had at hello. My kids like her kids, some of her friends are my friends — it’s just the best kind of ridiculous luck.

Lunch with her was my little treat for myself this week. She’s a Bahá’í friend, she’s a writer, she was my predecessor at Rideau Hall and the reason I knew there was an opening there (and thanks, Wendy!). She’s one of the best people I know in combining brains and encouragement. Somehow, it’s not as common as it might be, as it needs to be. I came away feeling good, feeling happier and (consider the odds!) smarter. It’s strange, the power of Deirdre. And then I hung out at the Running Room, buying nothing but soaking in that old feeling of athletic camaraderie with strangers who know sport and respect those who know it in return. Good afternoon!

Fumbling Toward Creativity

I’ve been working through The Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron, one of the most intelligent and illuminating personal development books I’ve come across. It’s an openly spiritual (and determinedly non-religious) take on the act of creation, and its message is simple: there’s a Creator, whatever you choose to call Him/Her/That; the world may be material but it is infused with spirit (and so are we); creativity is not some hoarded magic bestowed only on the few, but essential to human life and accessible by the many. The book asks a lot – it’s a 12-week program in “creative recovery” and there’s a lot of work involved in finding that free and open acceptance of our possibilities.

And Carol invited me to talk about art and spirituality at a meditative gathering she does in her home. We prayed, we talked about the forms and the importance that creativity takes in our lives – beauty, order, reverence, making, delight – and then we demolished gorgeously adorned trays of spirit-lifting goodies. Sweet. I’ll do that again, even if the food is not so smacktacular. “Tapping the Creativity Within” was our title; sounds like maple-syrup time. And it was, actually. I was suggesting that we need to provide an outlet for the sweet and juicy stuff that unceasingly flows from our spiritual roots to our intellectual (and hand-some) leaves. Nice. I like this image because it makes art something useful, delicious, natural. Sappy if necessary, but not necessarily sappy.

The Streak Continues

And now it’s 85 in a row for the Ravens. Carleton beat the York University Lions tonight, and their ridiculous romp through all comers is approaching the 88 of the immortal UCLA Bruins teams of Bill Walton, Marques Johnson, Greg Lee and The Coach, John Wooden. (The caveat, which Carleton generally remembers to mention, is that they count (only) regular season and post-season games they’ve won on their way to the last three Canadian University titles. St. Francis Xavier got ‘em in a preseason tourney this year, as the University of British Columbia did last year. And they don’t count their swings against American powers, where this year they played and lost fairly respectably at the legendary Pauley Pavilion of those UCLA Bruins. Glad we got that straight.)

I used to coach at summer camps with Carleton’s head man, Dave Smart, before he embarked on his astounding and still fairly young career. It’s as easy to admire and respect the Ravens as it must be difficult to play for such an unrelenting and insistent coach. He is focused, and so are his teams.

Repertory Cinema and Sentimental Radio

I was quite taken in by The Beat That My Heart Skipped at the Mighty Bytowne Cinema last night. A French film by Jacques Audiard, not someone I had known before, but it’s gritty and kinetic and tough-minded. (Much of the dialogue was slangy enough that my attempts to forego the subtitles found my conservative ears missing whole chunks, forcing my eyes back into double-duty. No great hardship, but a slight poke at pretensions of fluency.) It asks the cinematic question: What happens when a restless thug finds in himself an obsession with and a talent for classical piano?

It’s a remake of something apparently very cheesy called Fingers that Harvey Keitel was in early in his career, and I wonder what an American film made of that ending. Presumably, it was much more sentimental than the French one, with a not-quite-redemption scene charged by a brutal return to the life left. I’ve never seen Romain Duris in anything, but he was a dynamo, as deeply believable in this straddling of two utterly different worlds as the film itself sometimes was not (but not often). We cheer for him, are compelled by him, even as we find him a difficult character to like. I’d go again (if I had a teenager’s time).

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And, in an odd but soothing cross-cultural conjunction, I also lucked into the last night for Mary Lou Findlay on As It Happens as I drove away from the movies. [Warning: indignant rantings of an unrepentant CBC Radio-lover to follow. “What do you mean, you don’t know who Mary Lou Findlay is? Next, you’ll be telling me you’ve never heard of Michael Enright!”] I don’t often listen to AIH straight through, but I spent a fair amount of time last evening sitting in parking lots instead of completing my errands. It was a nostalgic journey of the kind I’m profoundly prone to: the best and funniest archival interviews done by Findlay, and warmhearted exchanges with her friend and partner, Barbara Budd. Such good and thoughtful people, such good and thoughtful radio. Fun.

The Democratic Circus: It’s Election Season

And they’re off! The Canadian federal election has been called. Peptalks, my-party’s-better-than-your-party, the pundits punditizing before there’s much scope for punditocracy. Ah, well. Democracy’s not so bad, you know, although we still have lots to learn about how to do it rather than having it done for us (to us?). But I had a delicious little surge of irony when the first bit of tune-age I played over breakfast today was the Talking Heads album Naked. Awesome stuff, the last vinyl album I ever bought though my kids buy ‘em all the time. Track one on side two is “The Democratic Circus”…

 Found out this morning / There’s a circus coming to town
 They drive in Cadillacs / Using walkie-talkies and the Secret Service
 Their big top / Imitation of life
 And all the flags and microphones / We have to cover our eyes

 We play the sideshows / And we like the tunnel of love
 And when we ride the ferris wheel / We’re little children again
 And when they’re asking for volunteers / We’ll be the first ones aboard
 And when the ringmaster calls our names / We’ll be the first ones to go…
 To sleep

 Stealing all our dreams / Dreams for sale / They’ll sell ‘em back to you
 On with the show! / Start the parade! / We sang along! / Sweep us away!
 It’s political party time / Going down, going down
 And the celebrities all come out / Coming down, coming down…

 Well, I enjoyed myself.